Last week was super hard for me.
I had to make a decision that felt like it broke my heart. It was one I’d been praying about. One I’d been walking toward for a while. A chapter that needed an ending.
So a new chapter can begin.
It was painful, yet perfect, really.
Just what I needed to do for so, so many reasons.
It’s easy to make it dramatic.
But honestly, it’s just the nature of making decisions. I am making choices every day that do one of two things-
Each decision, big and small, is moving me closer to the person I want to be, or it’s moving me further away.
It’s actually pretty simple.
But I have a habit of making things complicated.
I sometimes chew and stew and rue over things, making myself batty. But when I step outside of my paralysis analysis for a moment I can see each decision for what it really is- a choice about how I want to show up in the world.
It’s a question of, “Who do I want to become?”
Or asked another way, “Who do I want to be on the other side of this decision?”
That question is easier to answer.
I know who and what I want to be.
I want to be Brave. Strong. Real. Fierce-hearted. Grateful. Humble. Self-aware. Loving.
I want to be a stellar steward of the resources God has given me.
I want to be a creator, a contributor, a difference-maker, a lightbulb changer, a fire-starter.
I want to slide in my grave sideways like a baseball player steals home plate. Nothing held back. For sure, not some decision I made too big a deal about. Not even a tough one.
So, I am pondering difficult decisions differently.
As I begin thinking, ‘UGH. I need to do this thing or that thing, which will it be?”
Instead, I am asking…
WHO will I be on the other side of this?
Which choice takes me one step closer to the person I’m working to become?
Because often times, my difficult decisions aren’t about the “right” thing or the “wrong” thing.
I am not trying to decide between robbing a bank or becoming a missionary.
I am just your average Jo(anne), hopefully a decent person at heart, doing the best I know how.
And I can become a better person, for myself and the world, by going ahead and making decisions instead of circling the drain.
Deciding what I need to do.
Day 16/100: I'm trying to make decisions based on who I want to become instead of who I am in the moment. I can send you the written format too- text SENDIT to 444999
Posted by Purpose Dweller on Monday, October 9, 2017
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